Thanks to my friend and husband for reminding me about writing. I’m feeling ambivalent about writing today, but I’m writing anyway. I feel tired and kind of depressed, like the clouds have rolled over and it’s like do they ever stop rolling? Is it what I get for judging others…

that Medium stops showing me posts based on my reading history. Today’s post? How to wake up at 5am. Let me tell you how Medium. You have a baby that doesn’t sleep, that’s how. Take that. Don’t force the baby they said. Don’t force them to eat, it’ll just cause…

And I tried to be as honest as I could about my fears with therapy. So I like what came out of it and I want to share my notes here. three core issues my beliefs About me my lovability, acceptability, do i matter to myself, do i matter to God…

Minimize electronic devices they said. It’ll make you age faster they said. This all on an electronic device. As if I wasn’t depressed enough already. Get more sleep they said. Quality sleep. The kind that you don’t get if you have kids. Use sunscreen they said. But mostly don’t use…

I’m pumping and blogging in my office right now because I’m working with a life coach and she asked me how social media fasting was going. And — It’s going okay, because I at least realized I don’t even realize when I am trying to open my Instagram until I…

Okay. So I came to the blog to get away from what other people were telling me to do, and do what I wanted to do, dump out whatever is brewing inside me. But they have found me even here! More on that later. I wanted to say that I…

The trouble with sharing is that there is an audience. And the trouble with an audience for a people pleaser like me is that I start to curate what I say according to my audience, and the line between me and we becomes blurry. And I start to feel like…